“God grant me the Serenity

To accept the things I cannot change,

 Courage to accept the things I can,

And the Wisdom to know the difference.”

            I think this passage says a lot. It shows that you don’t always have control over things in life. You have to take command of the things you can change. If something bad happens, it is not always your fault because you may not have had the chance to prevent it. A person must know what the difference is between things they can and cannot change or they won’t be able to move on from it. This has a lot to do with accepting bad things in life. Not everything will turn out positive, so you must learn from the past and use it to make you a stronger person.

“It’s not just about believing when the miracles occur, but believing when the miracles don’t happen.”

            This quote has a lot to do with faith. Someone up above cannot solve all of your problems. People need to understand that. You must take some control of your own destiny even if it is out of your power. You can’t believe you are alone if a miracle does not happen. That is why it is a miracle when it does happen. You must always believe weather they occur or not. I always keep this line in my mind.

    "what if tomorrow never comes?
      how will i know that you love me?
      i just need something to live for
      so i'll never die again"

                      -chiodos



what if tomorrow never comes? what if tomorrow actually never comes? what would happen? would the day continue on? while everyone stares at the sky praying the sun will creep by the clouds and shine upon their faces? night would never come. mothers could be 5 months pregnant for god know how long. would we age years in just a day? or will we remain young until life passes us by.

I wonder if this would be a gift or a curse.

isn't it funny how time can move both fast and slow? but is always, in reality, a constant steady pace.

it's hard to imagine what would happen is the following day never came. as if it didn't exist. but for some of us, tomorrow does not exist. too many times have i turned on the television to people dying from murder, natural catastrophies, accidents, and disease. such a waste. whenever i find out news like this, i become very still, and i don't know what it is, but i pray to someone. i pray that they have accomplished everything they sought out for and that they will be rewarded in some way. to be happy up above. and i pray for those who knew them, who still must struggle through this life without them. such a waste...

what if tomorrow never comes? it may not for someone, or someone you know. which is why you have to treat life with such fragile respect. live everyday like it is your last. i try to.


one day i'm going to write a short story on this passage. i still need to gather my thoughts and ideas. but i think it will be interesting.
 

            A risk is taking a chance to lose something in an attempt to gain something greater. The bigger the risk, then more you can win or lose. A risk is never guaranteed. With all that being said, I consider myself a risk taker. I take risks all the time weather they are big or small. My biggest risk was choosing Curry College as the place where I would continue my education. I left my family, friends, and life back at New Jersey. I wanted to find a place where I could not rely on my family for support so I could take on school and my future life. I wanted to find a new home where I would fit well and Curry College was the place. Although I miss everything back at home, my risk so far has been worth it. I have made a lot of new friends and am having a great time playing for the soccer team. I feel like I am going to be very happy living here for the next four years of my life. I am in favor of taking risks because you won’t be able to make it through life without doing so. You need to try to benefit yourself by putting something on the line once in awhile. If your risk does not work out, then you can learn from it. I have taken many risks and they have made me who I am today. I do not regret any of them and I will always take more. I don’t want to be one who sits around knowing what my life is going to be. I’m always trying to do new things and see where they take me.



hey......go ahead and take a risk

            I have encountered many problems in my life, but one of my biggest dilemmas was when I was in high school and I lost the trust of my best friend. We have been friends for a couple years and told each other everything. We would always be together and when we weren’t together, we would be talking about everything possible for hours. Everyone knew we were great friends. Things were great between us until half way through sophomore year. Things got complicated because I dated this girl for a couple months and I really liked her. We have been broken up for awhile but I really missed her and still had deep feelings for her. My buddy knew that and did try a lot to see what he could do for me and if there was any way he could set us back up again. We both tried our best but it was obvious she was over me which left me heartbroken and sad all the time. He was always there for me but I kept a lot of it on the inside. The days went on and I felt the same way. I tried to get over it but I was young and weak. Time went by, and my family went to away on vacation. I was in Europe so I was out of contact with all of my friends. I remember my best friend instant messaging me right when I got back. We talked for a little about my trip and what has been going on. Well, I was informed of something that would change me forever. He told me that while I was gone, that he and my ex girlfriend have been hanging out and talking a lot and that they both have feelings for each other. His words hit me like a ton of bricks. I felt so betrayed by my best friend. The thought of seeing her with another guy was enough to make my stomach feel sick let alone seeing her with the boy who is suppose to always be there for me. The thought was enough to hurt me, but to be honest I handled the situation very well. I told him my feelings and how messed up my head has been. It hurt to think that after everything I’ve done for him, he would go and let something like this happen. He was supposed to be on my side when it came to her, but it was the exact opposite. My world was turned upside down. He said he would never do anything to hurt me and would not let anything happen between them two. But even after that being said I had to sit there and watch them over the next few months flirt and always laughing together. It was painful. I was never so helpless. Maybe I was being selfish, but my feelings and emotions were just too high. I did many things to try to resolve the problem. I started talking to other girls and put out the thought whenever it came to mind. At first it didn’t do much. I thought I would always be tortured by dreams of her. More time went by, and I started to feel better on the inside. I became stronger and was able to look back at my past and learn from it. As a result, he and I are still great friends. I forgave him, to an extent. This memory will never leave me. I still look back at it and cringe. It’s not the way I wanted my life to go. He is still my friend and we are always there for each other, but I don’t think I will ever be able to trust him like I used to. There will always be a part of me that looks at him with a different eye. I hope one day I will be totally free of all the pain. I have made great progress with not only him, but also her. I can look back at my past and learn from it.